This isn't the most exciting of blogposts, but have you ever just completely lost your train of thought because you're too busy thinking about insignificant things? And then you sit there and wonder how many other people are thinking the same thing. No? Just me? OK, well anyway, here are my thoughts in one day, I hope you all think the same things:
1. WHY is it so cold? And dark? And early? I want to go back to bed.
2. Do I have time for breakfast? Probably not. I should have got out of bed earlier.
3. It's not acceptable to wear yoga pants to uni twice in one week is it?
4. Aaaaand now I'm late. Great.
5. Excuse me Mr 9 year old Audi. Just because you're wearing a suit and drive a slightly better car does not mean the motorway belongs to you.
6. Bitch took my parking space.
7. I have no idea what the fuck is going on.
8. I'm hungry.
9. I probably shouldn't be on instagram. I should be listening to this guy talk about ministerial respons...
10. Why does SHE have abs? She doesn't even deserve them.
11. Was I singing that out loud?
12. Did she get dressed in the dark or is wearing leggings as pants intentional?
13. I hope people don't judge me this much.
14. Men should not wear pants that tight and sit like that. I can see the outline of his balls.
15. I wonder how many people would notice if I left early.
16. Oh but of course I can't leave early because I'll be criticized for being lazy.
17. Wait, what did I miss? Everyone's writing something, shit.
18. Food. Food. Food. Food. Food.
19. That looks awful but smells so good.
20. Ofcourse if I buy food I can't buy a starbucks...
21. Coffee is more important.
22. Ok, let's look at my to do list. It can't be that bad.
23. How do I still have 17 chapters left to read? I just read 2 whole chapters, not possible. Fuck that.
24. I REALLY need to go to the gym tonight.
25. Then again, I haven't been in 3 weeks so I guess another day won't make a difference.
26. But I can't go tomorrow because I have work. Fucking work, why does it exist?
27. Whoa, how did I get half way through my chapter yet none of it's gone in? I don't know how I feel about that.
28. This subject shouldn't even exist.
29. Nobody gives a shit about your boyfriend.
30. HOME TIME.
31. Hehe I just saw the man in the car next to me pick his nose.
32. I just got from chester to warrington in 30 mins. I don't know if I'm proud or ashamed.
33. I smell food, but I don't see food. My household has betrayed me.
34. I want new clothes.
35. Why is sports luxe even a thing? Surely nobody looks good in it.
36. Dr Pepper, whats the worst that can happen? I'll get fat, that's what. But it's so good.
37. Let's go to the gym so I can wear my new workout clothes
38. Stop looking at me while I run. Gym creep.
39. She's got a nice bum. I'm going to go on that machine next so mine looks like that.
40. It's ok, nobody saw me fall over *silently cry and limp out of sight*
41. NO. Wearing a normal bra under a sports bra is unnecessary and not ok.
42. I'm so excited for Friday
43. Oh look, somebody's fucked me over yet again. Shocker.
44. I wish I tried harder at school, then I'd be doing a maths degree.
45. Then again, what would one do with a maths degree?
46. Who the fuck says one?!
47. *Leaves the gym* I'm hungry.
48. It's too late for a shower now. I'll have to have one in the morning.
49. Which means I should probably go to bed now.
50. Look at my nails, I can't even deal
51. I'm such a bad excuse for a girl.
52. I'M SO PALE.
53. Should I really be putting fake tan on at midnight?
54. And now I can't sleep :(
55. I'm hungry
If anybody else has these thoughts or similar please let me know so I feel less of a weirdo. It dawned on me just how much I stray off topic and how strange some of my thoughts really were. So yesterday I wrote them all down in a notebook and this is the result. To all similar thinkers out there - Yes. We are awful human beings
CJ x
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Wednesday, 28 January 2015
Thursday, 4 December 2014
What to expect in your 20s
So I turned 20 in October and as much as I was dreading having to say that I'm now in my third decade, I was actually really looking forward to my 20s. There just seemed to be this air of sophistication surrounding my 20th birthday that I'd never felt before, I already felt more mature in the months leading up to it. All of a sudden mums in public said to their children 'watch this lady' and I was like 'am I really classed as a lady now?' I imagined that my 20s would bring the most exciting times in my life, I will graduate, hopefully buy my own house, get married, maybe get a dog etc. But instead I am faced with these battles:
1. Cheekbone acne/dried up spots
So you know when you're a teenager and you go through that face for about 6 years where there's never a moment with clear skin? Well it carries on, but this time that one single spot lasts 4 to 6 weeks and just dries up and creates a horrible rough patch of skin on your face, Not good. Also, all spots have relocated from your forehead and chin to cheeks and jaw. Whaaaat?
2. Under eye wrinkles/bags
Yep, I got my first wrinkle under my left eye two months ago and have never forgiven my face for it. I probably wouldn't mind having it if only they evened out! My face is already asymetrical and now it's even worse that I've aged more on my left side than my right. Saying that, I'm not wishing any more wrinkles upon myself.
3. Hangovers
WHY DID NOBODY WARN ME? In all seriousness, if you are 18 or 19, don't even bother working in a bar, spend all your time on the RIGHT side of the bar while you still have the chance to recover. Hangovers jumped on me all of a sudden and I can never get the years back where I could just get up the next morning and resume my normal life.
4. Lack of ambition and intelligence
I was WAY more clever as a teenager than I am now, I used to love maths and now I can't do any of it (and it's not through lack of practise - well, not that much). Also, I have no motivation to do anything, or if I do, it only lasts as long as my car journey. I really wish I'd put more of an effort in when I was younger and was more able to produce better outcomes because I'm really making up for it now.
5. All your friends are getting married?
Or buying houses. I have a group of friends where half of us went to uni and half of us got full-time jobs and I've got to say it's really unfair watching your friends buy brand new cars whilst I save up for weeks for a new foundation. I don't have any direct friends getting married yet, but loads of people I know are, when did I get so old?!
6. Yet you have no money ...
As mentioned above, weeks to save up for a foundation. The money I get from my part-time job pays for petrol and coffee at uni, nothing else. Goodbye new Kurt Geiger dreams
7. No more birthdays to look forward to
Apart from your 21st which I suppose is a biggy, there's no birthdays in your 20s worth celebrating that much, now I have to wait until I'm 30 to get more than 4 cards.
8. No immune system, like seriously, can't walk into a room without catching pneumonia
Especially if you go to university, or even commute via public transport. Say hello to frequent colds, stomach flu, fevers and much more. They last at least twice as long as they did last year too.
9. The majority of people you meet are arseholes
Yes, children and teenagers are probably more cruel than adults are, but adults are so rude and obnoxious, not all. Chances are, unless you say hi to me, I instantly hate you
10. It's so hard to make friends!
An expansion of above and of my previous blog post on what uni has taught me, if it takes seconds for me to decide I hate people, then it takes seconds for them to decide they hate me too. First impressions are everything.
11. You have to look your best all the time
There's no more getting away with dodgy eyeliner or slightly knotty hair because you're young, every day counts now. I'm not saying you have to look like perfection all the time, but you at least have to make an effort if you're leaving the house.
12. Learning from your mistakes
You'll constantly be looking back to your teenage years and thinking 'WHY did I do that?!' but on the plus side, you're not likely to make those mistakes again, keep learning and growing. Onwards and upwards!
13. Companies see you as replaceable
As the moral theory goes, you are treated as a 'means to an end, rather than an end in yourself'. In other words, unless you've got something that no other person can provide, you are surprisingly easy to replace, and it will hurt to see that, but life goes on
14. You NEED a hobby
Trust me on this one, if you don't have something to focus on other than you're workload, you'll give up on that too. Recently I've been feeling the Work, Sleep, Uni, Read, Repeat thing and this is not healthy! If you have a hobby, you are more likely to have more focus in everything you do and you'll use those rare few spare hours productively
15. You'll grow apart from friends
Now's the time where everybody grows up and away from one another, if you've managed to cling on to the few childhood friends you had, well done you! But once you hit your 20s, your differences become more noticeable and sadly you drift apart from people, it just gives an excuse for catch up drinks though!
16. Loneliness is inevitable.
Even if you're surrounded by people, it's still possible to feel alone. It's not that you don't have people, but they don't get you, the ones that do moved away, or moved on, and you're just here, on your own. It does get better though
17. Your soul mate is probably your best friend, not your partner
You know it, they know it, and I know it. There are certain things you do with your best friend and only your best friend.
18. Everybody's having kids and you can't even look after yourself
You heard it. Facebook is now overcome with pictures of scans, baby showers, newborns, toddlers, you name it. How do they do it? I still can't get to the top shelf of my fridge without climbing and there are people with actual humans depending on them. I applaud you
19. There's ALWAYS time for alcohol
Made a dick of yourself in work? ALCOHOL. Failed one of your university essays? ALCOHOL. Another friend is pregnant? TWICE AS MUCH ALCOHOL (because they can't have any). Fell over at the gym? ALCOHOL. (No? Just me then.)
20. The world's your oyster! Or is it?
Every time I go on instagram I have to look at travel pictures or even travel blogs! It seems so unfair that there's a whole lot of amazingness out there to discover but there is no way I can afford the time or money to explore! I'm getting there, but Bali is the dream!
This is everything I've learnt from the first couple of months of my 20s, I'm sure there's a lot more to learn but I thought these points pretty much summed up the decade! Let me know what you learned once you reached 20!
CJ x
1. Cheekbone acne/dried up spots
So you know when you're a teenager and you go through that face for about 6 years where there's never a moment with clear skin? Well it carries on, but this time that one single spot lasts 4 to 6 weeks and just dries up and creates a horrible rough patch of skin on your face, Not good. Also, all spots have relocated from your forehead and chin to cheeks and jaw. Whaaaat?
2. Under eye wrinkles/bags
Yep, I got my first wrinkle under my left eye two months ago and have never forgiven my face for it. I probably wouldn't mind having it if only they evened out! My face is already asymetrical and now it's even worse that I've aged more on my left side than my right. Saying that, I'm not wishing any more wrinkles upon myself.
3. Hangovers
WHY DID NOBODY WARN ME? In all seriousness, if you are 18 or 19, don't even bother working in a bar, spend all your time on the RIGHT side of the bar while you still have the chance to recover. Hangovers jumped on me all of a sudden and I can never get the years back where I could just get up the next morning and resume my normal life.
4. Lack of ambition and intelligence
I was WAY more clever as a teenager than I am now, I used to love maths and now I can't do any of it (and it's not through lack of practise - well, not that much). Also, I have no motivation to do anything, or if I do, it only lasts as long as my car journey. I really wish I'd put more of an effort in when I was younger and was more able to produce better outcomes because I'm really making up for it now.
5. All your friends are getting married?
Or buying houses. I have a group of friends where half of us went to uni and half of us got full-time jobs and I've got to say it's really unfair watching your friends buy brand new cars whilst I save up for weeks for a new foundation. I don't have any direct friends getting married yet, but loads of people I know are, when did I get so old?!
6. Yet you have no money ...
As mentioned above, weeks to save up for a foundation. The money I get from my part-time job pays for petrol and coffee at uni, nothing else. Goodbye new Kurt Geiger dreams
7. No more birthdays to look forward to
Apart from your 21st which I suppose is a biggy, there's no birthdays in your 20s worth celebrating that much, now I have to wait until I'm 30 to get more than 4 cards.
8. No immune system, like seriously, can't walk into a room without catching pneumonia
Especially if you go to university, or even commute via public transport. Say hello to frequent colds, stomach flu, fevers and much more. They last at least twice as long as they did last year too.
9. The majority of people you meet are arseholes
Yes, children and teenagers are probably more cruel than adults are, but adults are so rude and obnoxious, not all. Chances are, unless you say hi to me, I instantly hate you
10. It's so hard to make friends!
An expansion of above and of my previous blog post on what uni has taught me, if it takes seconds for me to decide I hate people, then it takes seconds for them to decide they hate me too. First impressions are everything.
11. You have to look your best all the time
There's no more getting away with dodgy eyeliner or slightly knotty hair because you're young, every day counts now. I'm not saying you have to look like perfection all the time, but you at least have to make an effort if you're leaving the house.
12. Learning from your mistakes
You'll constantly be looking back to your teenage years and thinking 'WHY did I do that?!' but on the plus side, you're not likely to make those mistakes again, keep learning and growing. Onwards and upwards!
13. Companies see you as replaceable
As the moral theory goes, you are treated as a 'means to an end, rather than an end in yourself'. In other words, unless you've got something that no other person can provide, you are surprisingly easy to replace, and it will hurt to see that, but life goes on
14. You NEED a hobby
Trust me on this one, if you don't have something to focus on other than you're workload, you'll give up on that too. Recently I've been feeling the Work, Sleep, Uni, Read, Repeat thing and this is not healthy! If you have a hobby, you are more likely to have more focus in everything you do and you'll use those rare few spare hours productively
15. You'll grow apart from friends
Now's the time where everybody grows up and away from one another, if you've managed to cling on to the few childhood friends you had, well done you! But once you hit your 20s, your differences become more noticeable and sadly you drift apart from people, it just gives an excuse for catch up drinks though!
16. Loneliness is inevitable.
Even if you're surrounded by people, it's still possible to feel alone. It's not that you don't have people, but they don't get you, the ones that do moved away, or moved on, and you're just here, on your own. It does get better though
17. Your soul mate is probably your best friend, not your partner
You know it, they know it, and I know it. There are certain things you do with your best friend and only your best friend.
18. Everybody's having kids and you can't even look after yourself
You heard it. Facebook is now overcome with pictures of scans, baby showers, newborns, toddlers, you name it. How do they do it? I still can't get to the top shelf of my fridge without climbing and there are people with actual humans depending on them. I applaud you
19. There's ALWAYS time for alcohol
Made a dick of yourself in work? ALCOHOL. Failed one of your university essays? ALCOHOL. Another friend is pregnant? TWICE AS MUCH ALCOHOL (because they can't have any). Fell over at the gym? ALCOHOL. (No? Just me then.)
20. The world's your oyster! Or is it?
Every time I go on instagram I have to look at travel pictures or even travel blogs! It seems so unfair that there's a whole lot of amazingness out there to discover but there is no way I can afford the time or money to explore! I'm getting there, but Bali is the dream!
This is everything I've learnt from the first couple of months of my 20s, I'm sure there's a lot more to learn but I thought these points pretty much summed up the decade! Let me know what you learned once you reached 20!
CJ x
Thursday, 23 October 2014
What My First Month of Uni Has Taught Me!
Hello!
So, first of all, I would like to sincerely apologise for me being M.I.A. recently, as some of you may know, I started at a new university last month and I've been SO busy!
In case this is confusing, I did go to university last year, but I wasn't overly keen on the place, course, etc so I started all over again in Chester! And I have never been given so much work in my life, I think it might just be because it's the first month but my workload is insane! So here's a quick list of things that I have learnt from this experience (and last year too)!
1. A full-time degree means full time!
- Think that you have a good timetable? Think again. Those 15 hours of lectures are only the beginning. Get ready to read 629 page books in the space of a week friends!
2. It's really hard to make friends.
- So you literally have to be that awkward person who smiles and shares too much information with people to even become an acquaintance (people who live in halls - it's easier for you, but also easier for you to dislike others too). However, the actual friends you make will become your soulmates, trust me on this one.
3. You instantly dislike everyone you don't know.
- Yeah you know that person that arrives late every Wednesday morning and then sits and texts for an hour so you have to endure the buzzing of their phone? Yeah, I don't know them personally either, but I still hate them.
4. FRESHERS FLU IS A THING.
- Luckily, I got my flu jab last week, this does not mean that I don't sit in my lessons with my scarf covering my face because I feel the germs of the person that has so kindly coughed all over me attacking me, thanks for that!
5. ... and apparently so are male ugg boots.
- Yes, I'm serious, I have seen no less than 3 pairs in one month and it's only October! Not forgetting to pair them perfectly with an uber-tight, matching, grey jumper and joggers/leggings for that perfect everyday look boys.
6. Leggings and Tights are now accepted as pants?!
- No. Just no.
7. Books are bloody expensive!
- £41.99 for ONE book, bloody English Legal System. Not to mention that my friend is a medical student and if she wants to buy her physio book new it's £129.47, absolute joke. On the other hand, if you don't buy these books, you're screwed.
8. Companies will do ANYTHING to get into the student market.
- Want unlimited buy-one-get-one-half-price pizza from dominoes? No problem! As long as you order every other day without fail. What about your face on a pepsi bottle? Just tweet and follow them! (Which shamefully, I did, but who doesn't want their face on a pepsi bottle?)
9. The Starbucks at Uni will never compare to the real thing.
- As my friend puts it, they always end up tasting like cardboard but who can resist a caramel latte when it's only £2.22?! Furthermore, the assistants look like they want to drown you every time you order anything but the basic americano, latte or tea. AND they don't have the pumpkin spice ingredients (basic bitches - beware).
10. The Freshers 15.
- You may not realise this yet people, but as soon as January comes, it'll hit you. Christmas did not make you fat, uni did. I did warn you about dominoes ...
11, You're already an alcoholic/Coffee addict
- I actually posted this on Thursday night, but somehow it's already Sunday morning and you're hungover. And if you are reading this on Thursday night, it's only because of that seventh cup of coffee you've had today.
12. Embarrassing moments.
- As it has come to my attention (mainly because this is exactly what happened to me), everybody did see you fall over on the first day, they just don't like you enough to make fun of you about it.
13, You can't afford to live.
- A little bonus one so you get your time's worth, commuter or inhabitant, you probably can't even afford to read this blogpost, let alone the pot noodle you're eating
Keep checking here for my upcoming blogposts (and P.S. it's my birthday on Sunday so look out for a haul in the next week or so!)
CJ x
So, first of all, I would like to sincerely apologise for me being M.I.A. recently, as some of you may know, I started at a new university last month and I've been SO busy!
In case this is confusing, I did go to university last year, but I wasn't overly keen on the place, course, etc so I started all over again in Chester! And I have never been given so much work in my life, I think it might just be because it's the first month but my workload is insane! So here's a quick list of things that I have learnt from this experience (and last year too)!
1. A full-time degree means full time!
- Think that you have a good timetable? Think again. Those 15 hours of lectures are only the beginning. Get ready to read 629 page books in the space of a week friends!
2. It's really hard to make friends.
- So you literally have to be that awkward person who smiles and shares too much information with people to even become an acquaintance (people who live in halls - it's easier for you, but also easier for you to dislike others too). However, the actual friends you make will become your soulmates, trust me on this one.
3. You instantly dislike everyone you don't know.
- Yeah you know that person that arrives late every Wednesday morning and then sits and texts for an hour so you have to endure the buzzing of their phone? Yeah, I don't know them personally either, but I still hate them.
4. FRESHERS FLU IS A THING.
- Luckily, I got my flu jab last week, this does not mean that I don't sit in my lessons with my scarf covering my face because I feel the germs of the person that has so kindly coughed all over me attacking me, thanks for that!
5. ... and apparently so are male ugg boots.
- Yes, I'm serious, I have seen no less than 3 pairs in one month and it's only October! Not forgetting to pair them perfectly with an uber-tight, matching, grey jumper and joggers/leggings for that perfect everyday look boys.
6. Leggings and Tights are now accepted as pants?!
- No. Just no.
7. Books are bloody expensive!
- £41.99 for ONE book, bloody English Legal System. Not to mention that my friend is a medical student and if she wants to buy her physio book new it's £129.47, absolute joke. On the other hand, if you don't buy these books, you're screwed.
8. Companies will do ANYTHING to get into the student market.
- Want unlimited buy-one-get-one-half-price pizza from dominoes? No problem! As long as you order every other day without fail. What about your face on a pepsi bottle? Just tweet and follow them! (Which shamefully, I did, but who doesn't want their face on a pepsi bottle?)
9. The Starbucks at Uni will never compare to the real thing.
- As my friend puts it, they always end up tasting like cardboard but who can resist a caramel latte when it's only £2.22?! Furthermore, the assistants look like they want to drown you every time you order anything but the basic americano, latte or tea. AND they don't have the pumpkin spice ingredients (basic bitches - beware).
10. The Freshers 15.
- You may not realise this yet people, but as soon as January comes, it'll hit you. Christmas did not make you fat, uni did. I did warn you about dominoes ...
11, You're already an alcoholic/Coffee addict
- I actually posted this on Thursday night, but somehow it's already Sunday morning and you're hungover. And if you are reading this on Thursday night, it's only because of that seventh cup of coffee you've had today.
12. Embarrassing moments.
- As it has come to my attention (mainly because this is exactly what happened to me), everybody did see you fall over on the first day, they just don't like you enough to make fun of you about it.
13, You can't afford to live.
- A little bonus one so you get your time's worth, commuter or inhabitant, you probably can't even afford to read this blogpost, let alone the pot noodle you're eating
CJ x
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